Alright today’s the day – the day I’ve been dreading.
It’s “expose the ugly truth” day and I’m mortified.
Here’s what 20 years of indulgence and self-worship looks like. Yes, I’ve had three children, and yes, I know that has something to do with this. But ruining my body started way before I began bearing children, and it’s going to take just as long, if not longer, to make it well again.
I needed to take this picture now because change is already happening and I don’t want to miss my chance to represent myself for what I am today – not just the better version of myself that I will find at the end of this year.
I never want to forget how repulsive I am in this picture. I never want to forget that this hideous body was something I’d been volitionally choosing for decades. I never want to forget that I never want to be here again.
This journey is long, and I’ve got such a long way to go.
But I’m not giving up.
I’m in it for the long haul – are you?
Until Next Time My Friends,
The Taylor of All Trades