PAD Weight Loss Day 5

Today was a hard day. Although this picture was taken just minutes after I finished my workout, earlier this morning I had a discouraging, deflating, disconfirming meeting that, although not weight loss related, set a negative and emotional trajectory for my day.

When I got home from this meeting, I wanted to give up on everything: eating right, exercising, loving other people, seeing the positive side of all situations. It was the first time this week that I’ve wanted to eat a bunch of crap just because it would be the easy thing to do, it wouldn’t require any thought or self-discipline on my part, and it would have made me feel so comforted to return to the known.

But by God’s grace (and with the help of a very, patient, loving husband), I was able to take a step back, gain some perspective, take a quick nap, and regain the determination without which this whole project becomes impossible.

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About two weeks before I started this journey, I read an article that just so happened to have popped up in my Yahoo! news feed. The article’s main argument was that people procrastinate for emotional rather than practical reasons. They would rather not start something as a means of avoiding any possible negative outcomes than start it and run the risk of failing or being rejected in some way.

I don’t know if this is true of all people, but it gave me pause, and forced me to ask myself if it might be true of me. To my dismay, I realized it was.

As someone with a Type-A, perfectionist, hard-driving personality, failure isn’t just about not being able to get something done, it’s a reflection of who you ARE. To fail at something is to BE worthless, BE useless, BE undesirable, BE meritless…and not just in the case of that one thing. As a perfectionist, to fail at one thing is to fail at everything.

And that’s why today’s meeting was so hard for me. Relational issues aren’t easy for anyone, but this issue cut to the core of who I am, of how I know God made me – and wants me to be. So, to be told that that person is unwanted, is to be called a failure. And to fail in this relationship is to fail in all that I endeavor to do.

That’s the false, depressing perspective I was clinging to before running all of this by my husband. Praise God for that man! He is so patient with me, so loving, so kind, so understanding – I would be lost without him.

He showed me that my perspective was contrary to Scripture and that the only way to move past it was to…move past it. Let it go. Refuse to let the lies I was believing fester and distort the Truth of God’s Word.

By God’s grace He healed every ounce of pain I was feeling, and filled me with peace that surpasses all understanding.

And once that happened, once I realized I am called to honor God in all that I say, think, do and feel, regardless of the difficulties presented by other people, I was able to put it all behind me. Poof. It was just…gone.

And that’s what allowed me to turn from the temptation to let my emotions dictate my actions and do what seemed impossible – eat well and exercise.

So, in a way, there are things that are interconnected, but only insofar as they seek to honor God. When one’s heart is submitted to Christ, honoring Him in ALL areas is a joyful calling!

Here’s to fighting through the distractions and discouragements – both physical and emotional.

Until Next Time My Friends,

S. Taylor

The Taylor of All Trades

#PADweightloss DAY ONE

Alright, this is it. This is the start of something I’ve been needing to do for years. I am tired of reaping the consequences of a sleep-worshiping, slothful, disobedient lifestyle.

God has been good enough to show me how rebellious I have been regarding the upkeep of my “temple,” and I know He will give me the strength to honor Him as I start my 1 Year 100 lb weight loss journey.

Today is Day One. I weigh 236 lbs, my jeans are a size 22, my back and knees are falling apart, I am most disgusted by my thighs and underarms, and this is what I look like in a towel (eek!):

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My verse for this year is 1 Corinthians 9:27

I discipline my body and make it my slave, so that after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified. 

I mindlessly ate crap food all day before deciding that today was the day to start my Picture A Day Weight Loss Journey. Finally, and at 11:30pm, once I put the two littles to bed, I grabbed an easily accessible workout DVD, a Billy Blanks Bootcamp DVD, and muddled through it like a clumsy orangutan.

I was winded in the first five minutes and couldn’t finish most of the sets, but I stuck with it as best I could. I felt (and still feel) great. My body aches the way only a good work out can make it ache, and I am feeling blessed by God that He has given me the strength to start this journey.

Please pray for me. This is going to be a looooong road, but it is one I’ve been called to walk down and one I gladly tread for God’s glory!

Here’s a snapshot of my goals for this #PADweightloss journey:

  1. Lose 100 lbs in 1 year
  2. Get down to a size 10 in “real jeans” (not the stretchy kind I currently wear)
  3. Be able to shop at American Eagle – my favorite “type”/”look” of clothing
  4. Save $2/day so that one year from now I can go on an American Eagle shopping spree

As always, please, please pray for me and feel free to leave any words of encouragement that the Lord puts on your heart. God knows I need them!

Until Next Time My Friends,

S. Taylor

The Taylor of All Trades

 

My Picture A Day Weight Loss Journey #PADWeightLoss

It’s December 19th, 2016, and this is it. This is what it’s going to take to change my life – I mean, really change it.

As of this moment, I am 31 years old, 236 lbs., size 22 jeans, my lower back is basically ruined from a perpetual state of obesity, I have constant acid reflux and digestive issues, my knees and ankles buckle constantly under the strain of my rotundity, I dread going up and down my stairs, and I am terrified that I will develop diabetes, a disease that runs on both sides of my family.

I’ve tried everything: fad diets, work out dvd’s, martial arts, stress weight loss, counting calories, sports, just everything. But in my alone time with the Lord and in prayer, I have been convicted of my slothfulness and lack of discipline. The Lord recently showed me that I have come to worship sleep. I love it, I mean, really, really LOVE it. And now that I am transitioning out of the work force and into the stay-at-home-mom routine, I know it will be a bigger temptation for than ever to sleep longer and be less active.

Realizing this, I knew I had to repent of my laziness and lack of self-discipline and BEG the Lord to give me the ability to stay faithful to Him by maintaining my body for His glory better than I ever have before. That’s where this post comes in.

For one year I am going to take a picture a day to catalogue my weight loss journey.

Yes, of course it’s about feeling more comfortable in my own skin and being able to buy and wear the clothes I want to, but its also about surrendering my idols to the Lord and allowing Him to give me the strength to do the miraculous. Because, believe me, any success I achieve at the end of this process will absolutely be a miracle of God’s own doing – not my own.

So, please, if you think of it – pray for me! I need it more than I can ever say. And, if you have the time, please leave me verses, prayers, and words of encouragement here or on my Instagram page @PADweightloss. This is not the sort of goal I can reach on my own.

If you do that for me, I’ll do these few things for you:

  1. Clearly articualte my goals to you in a follow-up post
  2. I will provide a picture a day that catalogues my progress toward those goals
  3. I will provide a daily (probably very short) journal entry about this journey to show you the reality of the ups and downs inherent within a project like this as well as all of the things I will be learning about diet, discipline, and dilligence
  4. I will provide weekly statistical updates that quantify my progress, as an encouragement to myself and anyone else willing to start their own #PADweightloss journey
  5. To the best of my ability, I will encourage you as/when you start your own #PADweightloss journey

So thats it! Let’s do this thing!

Until Next Time My Friends,

S. Taylor

The Taylor of All Trades